Turning Point

Can you feel what I feel !?

The amazing air breeze in the morning mingling through your hair and moving swiftly across your skin. The pleasant sound of silence that fills your soul with peace. When suddenly the world, that just a few days ago seemed to be messed around, scrambled, and nothing seem to be in its right place, seems just perfect. All the fuss and noise simply vanish and everything become very clear and transparent. For the first time in 23 years old I feel peaceful. For the first time I feel confident, strong and whole. For the first time I write about what I feel and refer to myself, not just write in a mysteriously hidden way about things only I know about, or even somethings I don't know about! For the first time ever, I am not scared :)

Years and years we live miserably, lost and shattered. Trying to figure out the reason for our existence or even a meaning to our lives. For that we keep busy and overwhelmed, trying to understand and figure out, what should I do and shouldn't I ? Regretting some actions and blaming others for some other. We keep busy, for so long, chasing something that don't actually exists! Yes, lets face it, life is meaningless, or at least we don't know what really is the point of it. So we are trying to find a meaning for actually a meaningless thing! It's just like trying to find a bird playing around deep down in the ocean. It tires us out so much, yet we got used to that, that we even forgot to stop for just one second and think of what are we doing !? Life is meaningless, so don't bother try to convince yourself otherwise. Actually that is a good thing, if life is meaninglessness, then you can have fun and never bother for the bad things that happen. Simply enjoy and make the best out of your short existence on that weird place called planet earth.

For that I am happy, for that I am accepting life and actually loving it.

Transformation

Just like a butterfly we all are, starting as a tiny little worm.Small, tiny and feeling plain and sometimes even feeling worthless. Shy to face the world or show our true core. Sometimes even scared to face that truth that we do matter! Hiding from the crowd, denying that we, like all other creatures are important and of great impact. We hide from the scenes and from ourselves. We hide our true character and personality from others. We don't share what we truly think, feel or do. For lots and lots of reasons. Sometimes, we are shy to tell, sometimes we feel like we don't want to bother others.

Then suddenly, out of no where and for absolute no reason, something happens. Something weird, yet special. Something powerful and very gentle; full of energy and filled with poise. This thing can be anything, and can be nothing. Its really complicated and mysterious, yet you will just feel and know it. That moment when you feel whole ! You are missing nothing, you have got it all, you own the entire world within your palms. In that legendary moment, a moment where time freezes waiting for you to go through your most spectacular experience and transformation. Its the moment where the whole world stands still, watching you become the most beautiful butterfly.
At that moment, you stop caring, bothering or worrying. You simply start BREATHING, for the very first time in your life. Your first time to feel alive, the first time to be calm. No more worries or issues to think over. Decision making feels easy like never before. You feel confident, relieved, like you own everything and everything is simply easy and nice and not worth your efforts. Life becomes sweeter :)

I am not Sorry

Dear community,

I am not sorry!

I am not sorry for being different and for not binding to your stupid rules.
I am not sorry for loving from all my heart till I broke it by my own self.
I am not sorry for making mistakes and taking bad decisions.
I am not sorry for the confidence in my eyes, and spirit in my soul.
I am not sorry for being a dreamer, looking forward to catch up with the starts.
I am not sorry that I don't settle, I seek the peak.
I am not sorry for living my life, my own way.

Frankly, I am not sorry at all :)

We are living in a world were people lack morals, values and have no principles in life. They do things because the got used to it, or found their parents do it. Just like the non-believers years ago used to and we mock them, while actually we are just like them!

For that I am sorry, I am sorry that we are living in a decaying world that seems to be very confident from the outside, yet deeply corrupted and falling apart from the inside. Its very ugly and full of hatred and bad energy, yet it never admits that.

I am really sorry that I am part of a community that don't believe in human rights.
I am really sorry that I am part of a community that steal, lie, kill, rape, deceive, gossip and betray, yet claim to be very religious.
I am really sorry that I am part of a community that due to the large amount of racism it faced become racist.

I am really sorry, but I will no longer care about your judgements :)